Crusade!

i'm quite sure that my future will be set on by this years actions. i'm 2 weeks away from the graduating year and i feel like it's going to be the end of my life(strange, i never felt that way). all in all, i think it's just the "Bac" nightmare that haunts me every day... and what faculty should i chose? should i follow the path of informatics or should i go on my own, and built a political carrier? there are some questions that i think only time will tell, but i'm quite anctious about the answers.
btw - my musical tastes haven't changed too much(well, i can delete heavy,glam,rap and shits like that from the list), i just enjoy listening to a lot of jazz and hardcore/metalcore(but, my dressing manners have changed as well).

is this life?

some recent past events have forced us(me and my mother) to live together again. teh context is quite sad, it's really depressing, but as many said, i was HIS pride, and i will work and fight so that i will be the pride of HIM hence forth. i will continue the tradition of "Crisan" family, i will fight for national unity, for my future and for a safe-Romanian contry. i can assure you that he will not be forgiven, his name and life will be forever in my mind. it's just, i'm quite confused right now, i don't know which path should i take, wether i should let it all flow or fight for everything(because, as in the past, i'm an atheist and i believe only in me, not in any type of god). anyway, a new life has began, it's like a rebirth to me, i really feel like i will arise like a phoenix from the ashes.

just a gamer

well, not quite. in fact, i've been playing A LOT since i haven't been writing. i think it's a good way, i got really tired going day by day thru' the same stuff. now i can say i enjoy my time, i really am good at the game that i am playing. ok, ok, some of you might have guessed it, it's DotA(known as "Defence of the Ancients"). you might say it's just a map(or mod) for WC3, but for me, it's much more. The map(mod) got a lot of popularity, i could say even more than WC3. the concept started in SC - BW with the map Aeons of Strife. it was a good map that everyone was enjoying that time, but eh, times change. the map has been exposed to some radical changes, and now, all hard-core gamers like me enjoy it to the core. it's great! i feel very well when i'm playing it, and i have big plans, and as a surplus, i really don't feel like going back to my ex-life.

forgotten

i'm starting to write today(again). i dunno what started my need for "blogging" again, but eh, i'll get thru' it. what can i say, there are some big changes going around here, most of them are about me, some about my family(unfortunately, some sad ones) and about my idea of life/society.